Events of yesterday!!

I was invited to two parties yesterday.  One was a Grand Opening for a salon where they wanted me to sell my Blinged out Binkys.  The other was a family Christmas party. 
The salon is called Naked.  They are located at 2896 East 3300 South if you need a wax, your hair done, your nails done, or want to buy some fun things at the boutique.  :-)  Support me and Naked.  ha ha!  It was a very nice day.  The girls at the salon are great fun and very nice to talk to.  The owner is a doll and a total sweetheart.  She gave me a wonderful brow wax as well.  All waxing through the month of December is 50% off.  SO GO IN AND GET WAXED!!     :-)  Ok I think I have promoted enough. 
The family Christmas party that I went to was absolutely wonderful.  I felt extremely welcome and very happy to be there.  Every member of the family came to introduce themselves and to thank me for coming to the party.  The area was nicely decorated tree and there was delicious food waiting for us.  There were laughs and fun to go along with the surprise drop in by Santa Claus.  (I even had a chance to sit on his lap).  After there was a great game we played and everyone got a fun gift.  My gift was a gift card to the Gap. 
I won't go into more detail than that but I will say that all in all it was a great day.  Thank you very much for making me a part of it.  You know who you are.  :-)

Snow Snow Snow

The only thing that I can say about this is that it didn't snow enough!!  I want the whole school to be closed down.  I need sleep, I need to do homework, and I need a personal day.  Tomorrow would be the perfect day for all of those... So come on Utah get some more snow.  I will love you forever and a day.  :-) 
And that is all I have to say.

Crushed

I often wonder why I am here... 
On this earth, in America, in Utah, at U of U, emotionally distressed, among other things.  Why am I here?  Am I put here for people to take advantage of?  Obviously I am not here to help anyone, nor to be a support or even to be a part of their lives forever.  So what is the reason as to why I am put here?  I feel like I'm in the way, that I need to move to a corner and stay there.  But alas, that will still be in the way of something.  If I were to just disappear would things change?  I believe that they would... for the better.  Maybe not for the bookstore (HA HA) because they would have to find another work horse, but for others it would be. 
I feel like I'm in a great big hole and I'm being plummeted with hard foreign object that people are throwing at me.  I'm having a really difficult time dealing with them.  When will it stop?  When will it stop?  Please stop, EVERYONE!  I try so hard not to break down but I find myself bawling my eyes out on the way home, in my car, between classes, before I go to bed.  What is that a sign of?  Defeat, depression, worthlessness?  I'm going with all three on this one. 
Tomorrow is a new day... Maybe I will wake up and all this thought and sadness will be gone.  Lets just hope........................................  Or something.

Today~

I would have to say that today was a GREAT day.  Nothing truly exceptional happened today but none the less it was great.  I got up, got ready, went to lunch with my mum and 3 aunts.  Then I went to my Dr. appointment, ran a couple of errands and went to visit Valena at the Bridal shop.  It was nice to see her at her new job and have a great chat with her.  I won tickets to the Wine and Cheese festival that they are having here so that will be fun.
Then I went to the fabric store, and home.  All in all it was a great, drama free day. 

That is all I have to say.
Cheers
Nicole~

I can never win!!

Here is goes...
I am trying to start a business.  Reasons being, I had a friend who took me for all that I am worth and more and left me in the bottom of the barrel with no money and a huge debt on my shoulders.  Going to school has made that debt bigger than I could ever imagine.
My parents have been a huge help with schooling and living that I have been able to get by.  My father has given me a job that I can come back to anytime I am in town. 
I have been trying effortlessly to make extra money anyway that I can so that I can one day become debt free.  So I decided to start a small business.  I thought is was a great idea until today when my sister-in-law comes at me with stealing her design.  I had no idea it was her design.  She had bought it from another lady so I thought that the lady sold them all like that.  This is a craft.  ANYONE can do it.  So why pin the blame and theft on me? 
So now I sit, bawling my eyes out because I am a cheat and a thief.  Ben has my other stuff and the won't answer my calls, I'm in Canada hoping to have a great time, see my nephew and brother and sister-in-law, and now I feel like curling up in my room and never talking to anyone again. 

I can't trust anyone!  I have my guard up.  I won't say a word anymore.  Life as it is in my eyes right now is over! 

Why are people so cruel?  And why is it that I know them all and they treat me like S H I T!!  What have I ever done to you to make you treat me this way.  If anything I have been friendly and nice and looked past your faults.  But no... I'm the horrible one here.  That's right, throw every thing that has gone wrong my way and blame it all on me.  GO ON!!!  I can take it.  I've taken it this long, what's another 50 years of this crap?

If I start acting quiet and uninterested around you... Don't be offended.  I just have nothing to say!

Trust VS. Mistrust

I don't understand why there are so many people in this world that are so dishonest.  I understand that people need to do things in order to get themselves on their feet and they have to work hard.  But they don't need to step on others toes to get there.  Hard work and being trustworthy are great ways to get to your goal. 
Why do people say things when they mean other things?  When I say that I will do something, I am planning on doing it but if I can't I use common courtesy and let them know that I won't be available at that moment.  I try to reschedule or make up for it somehow. 
Then you have the losers that are wolves dressed in lambs clothing.  They treat you so well and are kind and work hard to have a relationship with you.  But deep down inside (when they can't hide themselves any longer) the truth finally comes out.  They are sketchy, they have  bad habits, they are rude and quite mean.  They treat you like crap and make you feel as though it is your fault. 

Words to live by... Trust no one but yourself!!

I hate losers, liars, sketchy people, and drunks!!!  They all deserve to have Karma slap them square in the face.

Sick and Demented

I just watched a documentary on Jim Jones and the peoples temple in Jonestown...  How, What, Why?  I am completly confused and bewildered that these people could be stupid enough to believe such a greatly disturned man.  Why would someone be so completely evil to take all of these people down with him and then not have enough courage to take himself down?  He had to have someone shoot him in the head because he was such a whimp.  I feel so sad for all of the people who took it willingly, but my heart hurts for those people who were forced to go in such a harsh way.  :-(

Word to the wise... Don't drink anything that you have not made yourself.  Also never believe a sketchy man who is clearly demented. 

Um... Yeah that is all I have to say. 

RIP everyone who died in Jonestown.

Family

There are  some people in my family love and others in my family that I tolerate... But then there is my Aunt Shelley, Uncle Tex, Amy, Shauna, TJ, Kait, Logan, & Lucy.  I completely ADORE these people.  They have been the light in my life.  Every time I am around them I just beam.  I smile from ear to ear every time we all get together. 
So every Friday is our Orem trip.  We spend the evening eating pizza and a dessert while watching a movie or just talking.  We play with Kait and Logan and gossip with Shauna.  I sometimes feel that Elisa and I are too "Out There" for Shauna and her family but they keep inviting us over.  ;-)  So I think we are ok.

So this Friday we went to Provo to my Aunt and Uncle's house.  My cousin Amy was in town visiting so we had to come say hi.  She is a new mother to Lucy and an adorable mother at that.  She is so sweet and I can see that she is beyond happy.  Lucy is the cutest little girl.  She has cute chubby cheeks and she is sooo smiley.  I love it!

While I was holding her she fell asleep in my arms.  I love babies, they are so fun to cuddle. 

I'm sad that Amy had to go home today because I would have liked to hang out with her for a little longer.  But I can't wait until Elisa and I take a trip down to visit her.  I just know it will be a fun time.                   

Anyway, I am so grateful for this part of my family to be in my life.  And I hope that I'm not to crazy for them.  :-)   

Daily Rant

Ok this rant was suppose to be written last night but I was too busy doing homework and listening to Little Dustin and his wretched girlfriend fighting.  So a day late but here it goes...

Dear Vaughn,
BACK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!  How the HE L L am I suppose to keep you happy?  I keep my eyes up and looking a round to check out customers and make sure that things are going smoothly and you complain to Susan that I stand around and do nothing.  (Which is SO not true).  So then I start working.  I fold things, and put things away.  I move things and clean under them.  I refill bags and staplers.  I check lockers and make sure that candy and coolers are filled... But what do you do?  You complain to Susan that I keep my head down too much.  UGH!!  The one time I put my head down you come around the corner and freak out because there is one or two extra people standing in line.  Guess what Vaughn, people can stand in line for a second.  It isn't going to kill them.  And the moment that I see them I always call them over.  I know how to do my job.  I'm not stupid!  So SHUT UP!!  Go sit in your office and play your solitaire.  If you need to have a power surge go to someone else's department and rag on them.  Oh and guess what?  If one or 2 drinks are missing in the morning, it is ok.  The coolers will be filled the next day.  I can't be continuously on top of them as well as everything else and I can't be Wonder Woman, although I am trying.  Give me a break please.

On a side note, thank you for filling the coolers when I got to work on Monday.  That was very sweet of you and I appreciate it.  I'm also glad to see that you can do some work yourself.  I know you probably don't sit around but neither do I.  And I would appreciate it if you noticed the things that I do right and not the things that I do wrong because if you look and watch, I try very hard.  Everyone else seems to notice but you.

Ok, I almost feel better now.  Whew.  I don't hate you, I just need a break.

Sorry to all who read this... Maybe you should have stopped at the beginning.  lol

(So this was suppose to be posted yesterday.  I feel much better today)

Crazy Dayz!!

So I was thinking and I noticed that everyone has said something about themselves in their first posts so that people who read these things kind of know who you are... So here it is:
My name is Nicole~  I am 31 years old, 5'7" with and average/chunky build.  I can't decide on a hair colour so it is always different.  I really like blonde, black and red.  I hate shopping so I usually wear a pair of jeans, a T-shirt from the University of Utah and a hoodie from Lulu Lemon.  I am single with no children and I have never been married.  Sadly I am quite single and have been single my whole life.  (Maybe I'll go into my reasonings another day when I'm feeling up to the challenge).

Ok if you have any questions let me know.

Back to Crazy Dayz!!

I have a week left in Calgary and then I will be back to Salt Lake City.  I have so much to do in such a little time.  I plan on going to Yoga every day before I leave.  I also hope to clean the garage enough that you can fit an SUV into it.  I would like to paint the floor downstairs and fill it with food storage, which will clear up a lot of space in the spare room... And the list goes on.  How will I finish it all in time?  I don't think I can unless I devote all of my time to these projects and forget about sleep.  I guess we will have to see.
I also need to include nephew time in this schedule as well as time to pack.  UGH  I think I need more hours in the day.

I am excited to be busy busy busy and I can't wait until I see the mountains of SLC through my windshield welcoming me home.

My first blogggg

I don't really know what to say on here but I guess each day will tell right?
Today I'm sitting on the couch thinking and thinking about cleaning up the nasty mess that children made all over the kitchen during the bridal shower we had on Thursday night... I can't bring myself to do it.  Why you ask?  Because I think that parents need to teach their children to be respectful.  If children were taught right I wouldn't be sitting here looking and the chocolate mess all over the floor, carpet, outdoor swing, and table cloth.  I wouldn't have to clean it all up.  So here I sit... Debating.  Maybe I should call up the parent's of the children so they can come and clean up the mess and I won't have to?  Hmmm good idea.  But sadly I'll bite my tongue and do it myself.  GRRR!

PARENTS:  Teach your children to be respectful of other people's property!!!
Maybe more to come later today...